Walking away from my love.

Finding and committing to love is a hearty decision that most often is all engrossing. When two people are in love, they will make all sorts of promises to each other. I will not forget when one of my friends told her fiancée, “the time I ever stop bringing you a flower then just know I have stopped loving you”. I knew my friend was making one of those sweeping statements out of infatuation,

The breaking of hearts or broken trust can be catastrophic, yet love should exceed emotions and reach levels of commitment. Greater love has no one than this: to lay down one's life for one's friends. (John 15:3 NIV). The thing here is how do we respond to such extraordinary love. Love makes sense when it is mutual.

The heartbreaking part with me is that I seem to be prone to leave the one I love, the one who loved me so much and laid down his life for me. When I read the book of Hosea, I get mesmerized by how relentless God’s love towards his people is and how prone the people are to wander away from this love. The writer encourages Hosea to marry a lady called Gomer, whereas Gomer will keep walking away from Hosea’s love, Hosea is to have undying love for her and pursue her. She will chase after her lovers but not catch them, she will look for them but not find them. Then she will say, ‘I will go back to my husband as at first, for then I was better off than now.’ ( Hosea 2:7) Return to your first love where you have fallen, the days of dating when you could not leave without a message to her are comparable to your first days of salvation when you met the love of God and spent quality time in prayer, bible reading and fellowship. How easily are you moved from the one you love, how quickly we tend to forget his goodness yet on the other hand he stays on, arms outstretched waiting for us to repent from our prodigal hearts (Luke 15:20 NIV). At our repentance he put a new robe and throws a party. Your lover has this to say, ‘Yet I hold this against you: You have forsaken the love you had at first. Consider how far you have fallen! Repent and do the things you did at first’. (Ephesian 2:4 NIV)

The pain I carry and actions I regret are the times I moved away from the one who loved me and my heart hurts for the drifts from the presence of my lover. I will seek to abide; I will pray to dwell in his presence and behold his beauty all the days of my life! One thing have I desired of the Lord, that will I seek after; that I may dwell in the house of the Lord all the days of my life, to behold the beauty of the Lord, and to enquire in his temple (Psalms 27:4 KJV).

The essence is that in our relationships we must go beyond mere emotions and feelings and reach the level of commitment. When we leave our lover, we hurt ourselves so bad and our return is heavy and shameful. Let us pray for steadfast, immoveable, always abounding commitment.